I realize I haven’t written in a while and I feel compelled to do that blogger thing where you apologize for it being so long since you’ve updated your blog, but the truth is, none of y’all have been sitting with bated breath since my last post in October. And really, the bigger truth is that I want this blog to be for ME, not for YOU (#sorrynotsorry). So, I’ll write when I wanna write.
So, the news you’ve missed, if we aren’t close in real life is that we’re pregnant! Charles Howard Mays is due at the end of June and we could not be more excited about how our family is growing. Having a 12 year old son at home is kind of like having two daddies in the house to care for me. It’s been awesome.
This past week, I was diagnosed with Gestational Diabetes and it was a really low point emotionally. The most pervasive feeling is guilt – did I do this to myself? Did I do this Charlie? And after that, fear. I was terrified that I would have a huge baby, that my plans for a natural hospital birth with no intervention (a “home birth in the hospital” is what I’m aiming for) would be dashed.
I bought this book and slowly, with the help of the most supportive husband on the planet, pulled myself out of my panic. I’m really lucky that my husband is a chef – he’s taking on this new low/no-carb and low/no-sugar diet on as a personal chef’s challenge. I’m really fortunate to be with a midwifery practice that isn’t panicking and pushing me with fear and talk of inductions.
For now, I’m testing my blood sugar and closely monitoring what I eat. My midwife believes I’ll be able to get a handle on it by changing my diet, so I’m white-knuckling to that belief as well.